I Almost Missed Out

January 23, 2019
by Rose DeShaw

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 – We give thanks to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. He is our Father Who shows us loving-kindness and our God Who gives us comfort. He gives us comfort in all our troubles. Then we can comfort other people who have the same troubles. We give the same kind of comfort God gives us. (NLV)

I almost missed the happiness that God has had for me in life, when I decided to end it at the age of 17. Miserable, lonely, and friendless, I could not see this changing in the future. What good is my life? I questioned, not realizing that my life did not belong to me.

I decided to put myself in a situation where someone would kill me, and I wandered off down a dark street in a bad part of town. God sent another student, angel-like, to find me and rescue me. He asked me to promise that I would "never do that again".

Many years later as I thought about that promise, it occurred to me that he couldn't have known that I had intended suicide. It must have appeared to him that I was only promising not to wander off. I turned once again to the God who had found me, and with tears streaming down my face, I finally wrote this story for a national newspaper. I told how I had faithfully kept the promise that I thought I'd made, drawing closer to God when suicidal feelings occurred. I included all the happiness and joy that kept occurring in my life since I'd given it to God. So here I was, writing and praying for others in the same pain.

Not long after my story was published, a friend in another town was counselling a new immigrant. "How hard it was, coming to another country," the woman said to my friend in broken English. "Suicide was in my mind. But then," she continued, "I read this story in the paper …" and from her wallet, she pulled out a tattered copy of what I'd written.

God had His own purpose in letting me see that I had helped somebody else, reminding me that I needed to tell the stories that were mine to tell. Often, I have heard someone say, "Oh, I can't write. I wouldn't know how." But the stories of our lives are our special gift to others. In a real sense, writing them is a debt that we owe to those we will never meet. No one can tell your stories better than you. Someone said, "God speaks to us all a little differently, hoping that we'll tell one another." We get better at it as we do it and share it.

Isaiah 52:7 – How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of him who brings good news, who tells of peace and brings good news of happiness, who tells of saving power, and says to Zion, "Your God rules!" (NLV)

Prayer: Dear Father God, how thankful we are for Your grace that found us and kept us when we were lost and afraid. How grateful we are that You continually sustain us and keep us ever walking in Your ways. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

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Rose DeShaw <rise370@gmail.com>
Kingston, Ontario, Canada

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1 Comment

  • PresbyCan Feedback says:

    A beautiful story, Rose.


    Amazing story, thanks Rose!


    Thank you, Rose. I needed that today.


    Thanks for sharing such an important message.
    God Bless.


    Been reading these devotionals for 20 years. Your story is the most touching and inspirational I have read.


    Hi Rose,
    Your devotional today was so very touching all I can say is …. Thank you … and Praise God!


    Thank you, Rose, for sharing how God rescued you from hopelessness and gave you a mission to help others. You blessed my day with this devotional. Blessings.


    Thanking God for the angel in disguise who stopped you from destroying the writer (you) who gives such hope and strength to others.
    Blessings.


    Wow! Thanks be to God for intervening in your life! And thanks for sharing your story in the newspaper and today with our readers. May God continue to bless you to be a blessing to others.


    Hello Rose
    Wow, powerful and meaningful. Thankful that ‘angel’ friend came and found you that night and thankful God is faithful and has a purpose. Well written.
    God bless.


    Good morning Rose,
    Thank you for a wonderful devotional. It is true that we do not always realize how our words and actions can and do affect others. In this time of such destructive and demoralizing political antics it is so important to step back and focus on what is most important: God in our lives. Thank you for reminding us.


    Thank you for sharing your story, Rose. One which I’m sure has resonated with many, and if it again serves to save even one person from feeling their life is not worth living, you will have done one of the greatest services.
    Thanks be to God that you chose not to take that fatal step.
    Take care and may God Bless and be with you always.


    Thank you for your devotional today, it got me thinking.
    Many times I’ve prayed for and encouraged someone on my FB and you kind of forget that once those words are sent out you never know who might see them!
    I love to speak of our gracious, loving heavenly Father who deserves all of our praise. You just never know whose life those words can touch for after all, we walk by faith and not by sight! I’m so glad of the story you shared and then telling your readers about the “ripple effect”, thanks again for the encouragement.


    Dear Rose,
    I am so thankful that you are still here! Glory to God for you being humble, caring, and brave to share your story with others!
    I can relate to your story – I am an attempted suicide survivor.
    I once heard something like this:
    The sign over the gates of hell reads; Leave all Hope Behind Here.
    I find that IN JESUS is true Hope, He makes all the difference, and only He can give life real purpose.
    I can’t believe all I would have missed out on too.
    Especially those I get to point to Christ!
    Keep running the race Sister Rose. Were almost there!


    Dear Rose,
    Thank you for your very encouraging report.
    It can be very far-reaching – as we pray for any disheartened people.
    May God bless you forvever and keep you encouraging others.
    May we show love as you love. Amen

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