Have you ever felt sorry for yourself and asked that age-old question "Why me, Lord?"
I hope that some of my readers have been there, so that I don't feel all alone. As some of you are probably aware, my life has been turned upside down. Sometimes, things are pretty good, but once in a while, I go into that mode of feeling sorry for myself. I was reminded of something that I heard not too long ago: a pity party.
I looked up the words in Google, and this is what it said:
- A Pity Party – A way of experiencing grief, in which you spend your time feeling sorry for yourself and whining endlessly about how crappy your life is. Pity parties can be just for one or for many people, such as your close friends who will try to comfort you or just be there for you while you keep asking yourself what you did in order to deserve whatever it is that made you so sad in the first place.
I wear many hats. I look after our financial affairs and arrange for appointments for my husband as well as myself. I make out the shopping list. I pay all the bills and make sure that we don't run out of propane gas. I cook, clean, and do laundry. I run errands for my mother, take my aunt shopping every week, and help out at the church. I am constantly closing doors and drawers and turning off lights that my husband has left open or on. Some days, I feel totally overwhelmed, and I start feeling sorry for myself and asking, "God, why me?"
It was during this time of helplessness that the Holy Spirit broke through the silence and told me that God allows certain sufferings in our lives in order that we learn and grow from them. I know that I need to learn patience, and lots of it!
Psalm 23:4 – Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. (NIV 2011)
Although sometimes in our hurting and pain, it may feel that we are all alone, in our trials, God's rod and staff will comfort and lead us.
Where might God desire to comfort and lead you today?
Prayer: Lord God, be with us in our trials. Help us to look beyond our immediate circumstances, and remind us that You are always with us and that this present situation will look differently tomorrow. Amen.