God's Corrections

August 16, 2015
by Deana Weyman

I was experiencing grief before my husband's death.

Despite all the activity and busyness going on with his palliative care the many months before he passed, as the time went by, I was aware of a deep, ongoing sadness in my being.

I would find myself broken with self pity on many occasions, and when I was able to find a private space to let go, the bottom line was, How am I ever going to face this, after my dear one is gone? Based on what I believed that my lot would be when I was alone, I decided that it would be unbearable.

We shared a love of classical music, and our lifelong habit had been to play a record or CD at dinner every night. Daily choices were alternated: he one night, me the next. That, in itself, would be no longer. But the heart-rending part was the numerous passages, performed by our favourite singers, which would inevitably bring us both to tears. That was a strong emotional connection that I absolutely knew that I could never again share with anyone else. And so, I grieved heavily before he departed. It was legitimate emotional grief.

What I failed to recognize (and in that situation, God knows and allows for our human responses) was that things just might be different afterwards.

I am continuously amazed at how God works in His quest to show His children how He cares. He has shown me His love on many occasions, bringing me through several crises by showing me the way.

Now, on the other side of the death journey, I am in awe of His gift of comfort and peace, as I experience it.

The pre-conceived situations that I imagined have not happened, of course, because I have not initiated them as yet. But I know that when I do, it will not only be when God prompts me to do so, but also it will be a joyful occasion, planned by Him, that will surely bring tears of joy, and not just grief.

Psalm 119:49-50 – Remember the word unto thy servant, upon which thou hast caused me to hope. This is my comfort in my affliction: for thy word hath quickened me. (KJV)

When we trust in the Lord's compassion and comfort, we will be amazed at His lovingkindness given, His peace bestowed, and His messages received. We will be humbled.

Prayer: Dear Father, thank You for showing us the absolute depth of Your promise to never leave us nor forsake us. Please continue to guide us, through the Holy Spirit, as we walk the difficult paths we must traverse. Amen.

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Deana Weyman <deana@sympatico.ca>
King City, Ontario, Canada

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1 Comment

  • PresbyCan Feedback says:

    God bless Deana. Thanks for sharing.


    So true. The Lord is always with us. Thanks.
    (B.C.)


    Beautiful! Deana, He filled you with strength, as well as comfort.
    Sorry to hear of your loss, but glad to read of your faithful journey too.
    Blessings.


    Deana – What a beautiful picture you have drawn via this devotional of God’s faithful love and compassion. Thank you and God bless you as you receive responses to this writing.
    (California, USA)


    Dear Deana Weyman,
    My condolences to you in your husband’s passing and for sharing with us your experience with “anticipatory grief” prior to his passing, and how some of those situations have not or did not happen. No doubt you touched a cord in many, many people today, both women and men, and may the comments of others offer you some comfort.
    God be with you always, and especially through your journey in finding a “new normal” in your life.


    Deana, your devotional touched a cord in my heart. Twenty-five years ago, I walked the path you wrote about and my Savior Jesus Christ walked with me and my family through the kindness and caring of our Christian community. Today we have a totally new life given through God’s amazing grace. Peace and even joy fill my own life. These days, Jesus is more than enough for me. I rejoice in His caring for He has indeed been a father to the fatherless and a husband to the widow. Praise His Holy Name! Praying many blessings upon you.
    So true. The Lord is always with us. Thanks.
    (B.C.)


    Hello Deana,
    I have experienced the same hurt as you. My wife died in her 50’s.
    It is remarkable how God mends broken hearts and brings happiness back into lives. I remarried a friend who was also widowed and we were married for many years but now I am a widower again.
    I am telling you this because God knows what He is doing and if there should be a man who is as lonely as you, don’t fight it. It is wonderful to be able to share the joys of life together again with someone if there is mutual Love.
    Happiness and Blessings.


    Deanna, understand completely. Four years for me..

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