"I am the master of my unspoken words, and a slave to those that should have remained unspoken." This unknown writer must have felt exactly the same way as I did: guilty.
Have you ever said something that you were sorry for as soon as you said it? I have, many times. It seems that sometimes I just can't help myself. As hard as I try not to say those hurtful words, they just roll off my tongue and escape out into the open.
The condition that my husband is in is not his fault — it is what happened to him during surgery — but what he says and does stirs up emotions deep within me, and inevitably, those feelings come pouring out of my mouth. I lose my cool and ask him why he did that and why he keeps repeating those things that upset me. I know that he doesn't realize it, yet my emotions show their ugly face again. I need to get victory over these emotions. Unless my heart changes, I won't be able to get victory over my words.
Matthew 15:18-19a – But those things which proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and they defile a man. For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts. (NKJV)
Philippians 4:11b – I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content. (NKJV)
1 Thessalonians 5:18 – In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. (NKJV)
I prayed to be content in those situations and also to give thanks to God, as my husband's condition could have been so much worse. Yet, sometimes I still lose my cool. How does one learn to be content in all situations and give thanks in all things?
I must thank Robin Ross, editor of the PCCWeb Daily, who told me that every time my husband does something again, I should take that situation as a reminder to say, "Thank you, God, that I have my husband. I choose to be content and to thank You in all these things." Because "the word of God is living and powerful" (Hebrews 4:12a NKJV), the constant repetition of the words of Scripture has tremendous power to effect change in a person.
Later, the Lord answered my prayer in an amazing way. I was reading the devotional The Hunt by Lynne Phipps, who shared the following Scripture:
2 Peter 1:3-4 – His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and goodness. Through these He has given us His very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires. (NIV)
It was as if a light went on. I immediately replied to her devotional and told her that it had come at the most appropriate time. I have been neglecting to read my Bible, as there are always other things that have been a priority. I have neglected to "hunt for those precious promises" from God. I was trying to do things under my own steam.
I have decided to start anew. Every morning when I get up, I open my Bible and start reading according to a two-year plan that I retrieved from the Internet. I will learn to be content in whatever situation I am in. And next time I am confronted with my emotions starting to arise, I shall make the choice of giving thanks to God.
My friends, whenever you feel unloved, whenever you feel like a failure, whenever you feel that life is hopeless, remember those precious promises of Jesus and claim them for yourself!
Prayer: Dearest Jesus, thank You for Your precious promises that can be found within Your Word, the Bible. Help us to discover Your truth within these pages and apply them to ourselves. Reveal Your truth to us, and strengthen our hearts to serve You as You will have us do. Amen.