Hebrews 10:36 – For ye have need of patience, that after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.
She lies in a state of awareness which is at most times, uncertain. The victim of a massive stroke, she will never walk or talk again, never be able to feed herself, toilet herself, comb her hair, see her reflection in the mirror, dance, sing, or sit her great-grandchildren on her knee. Yet she fights for life. She is a feisty 85.
At first she responded by squeezing her hand. That is gone and now sometimes her response is shown only by the blink of her eyes. When you comb her hair, she turns her head for you to do the other side. She opens her mouth wider when you soften her lips with Vaseline. Softly smooth cream on her skin, roughened from dried moisture and "something" shows on her face. It can only be described as a "change", for she is unable to make an expression. Yet it seems very close to a smile. "Something" says she appreciates the care. Her eyes, though seemingly unfocused, follow voices and some movements.
Her family grasps at every minute sign that she understands. Every little progress thus far, is an accomplishment.
It is a roller coaster ride for which no one asked or paid to get on. We pray that she at least be given the strength to be transported back to her own hospital in another province.
For anyone involved with those who have limited or no movement and seeming understanding, it is a daily struggle to communicate, especially in the beginning. It is known that one must never say anything they would not wish the patient to hear, because you must assume that they hear everything.
In these days of "instant gratification" and the constant desire to "have proof" before we can believe, it is indeed a test of faith to believe that we are being heard. We want proof and we want results not only now, but in the way in which we expect.
We are heard; we are listened to; and answers do come. It is we who must listen.
Prayer: Our Father in Heaven, we know you hear our every prayer. Grant us the grace to wait with patience while your plan for us unfolds, to pray that "thy will be done", and to accept that it is being done. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen.